Tomorrow is the BIG DAY

Tomorrow I go for my first MS treatment. It's an hour long IV infusion with an hour hold afterwards to watch for reactions. I'm more wigged out about the stupid IV than I am about the drug. I've been sticking people and animals since I was 18, but I can't stand to get an IV. I think part of the problem is that I KNOW how it's supposed to be done and I hate relinquishing the control over it. Plus, it damn well hurts! I have been known to smack a nurse who snaps my vein. Vein snapping is a no no and totally unnecessary if you know what the fuck you are doing. I will be taking a bit of Ativan to maintain my cool, but since I am driving myself, it will only be a low dose. I'm having the infusion done at a cancer center, so I'm hoping they'll be good stickers.
The drug I will be using is considered high risk and is incredibly expensive. $90,000 a year. Fortunately for me, the drug company has agreed to pick up my tab for the medication. That news made my day. Now I just have to hope it works without killing me.