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Yep, I haven't posted shit in over a year. So this is my sort of explanation...
I was having issues with my employer, who is the largest medical insurance company in North America and COMPLETE ASSHOLES to work for. Crappy pay, crappy health insurance, mandatory overtime EVERY FUCKING WEEK FOR OVER FOUR YEARS!! and a total lack of interest in the people who bust their asses for them.
So anyways,
I began having serious MS issues early in 2018. I told my bosses who didn't give a rip, and by June of last year, I was done. My neurologist pulled me out of work. I immediately went onto short term disability and hired a lawyer to help me navigate the governmental morass that is applying for Social Security Disability. My employer put me through hell every five weeks to recertify medically for my short term disability. My stupid case manager actually had the balls to tell me "I just don't understand why you were working full time hours and then suddenly you couldn't work. That does not make any sense to me." Bitch, it's because I HAVE MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS. Can you tell I have a lot of anger towards these people?
Anyhow, I spent six months on short term disability at 80% pay. My lawyer told me it would take about two years for me to be approved for Social Security Disability because the government is so far behind with the cases. So I have been hanging in there cos I don't have any other choice. I can't work full time, and as long as you are applying for Social Security Disability, you cannot have any earned income. I guess you're just supposed to starve. My attorney has clients who are living out of their cars cos they have lost their homes, etc. I have a house, a car, and four dogs. My family was absolutely not interested in assisting me in any way. (My mother told me to just go back to work and stop trying to take their money)In this situation, eBay has been very useful. And my ex husband stepped up and has funneled me about $1500.
So on New Years Eve I got a letter from the US government, from the Social Security Department, and I WAS AWARDED MY SSDI! I was flabbergasted, as was my lawyer. I was approved my first time through the system which apparently happens only 8% of the time. I also got a pretty good award, although it doesn't come close to covering my bills, lol. The really bad part, is, I don't get my first check until the end of February. And I don't get any more employer based disability since I now have SSDI approval. I can work part time to a certain income level and not lose my SSDI, but I have a leg issue that must heal before I can work. The biggest problem for me in terms of working is this: I won my SSDI because I can't really work due to what is often called MS Dementia. My MS is very extensive (lots of bad spots in my brain) and it is causing cognitive dysfunction. I am having trouble with my short term memory, comprehending complicated processes (like the sops at work), impulse control, etc. It sucks. I can take care of myself and my dogs as long as I am at home and can stick to my daily routine. I have some difficulty talking on a bad day cos I have trouble finding my words. And I am a big time talker, lol.
Anyhow, part of the reason I never posted anything about this was because my employer was watching me. I didn't dare post about my filing for SSDI etc, for fear that they would fire me and I would lose my short term disability. My lawyer warned me not to put anything in writing anywhere about what we were doing. Not even texting. Yeah, my employer is that big of an asshole.
So this is the first time I have put any of this in any written form. Having a brain that is becoming uncooperative sucks, but I am fighting to keep my house and my car and my dogs. I tried the roommate thing but ended up with a sociopath who abused my dogs and bragged about it. I went to court to get her ass out of my house. I have been selling things on eBay to get cash, and I closed out my last retirement account to pay my mortgage payments. Money is extremely tight but I am hanging in there. What choice do I have? I did get Obamacare for health insurance and I got it for free, so that really helps. I have friends who drive me to my dr appts etc cos they're all out of town and I can't drive far cos of my leg.
And now I'm rambling. Apparently I do that really often now too, lol.
So that is what has been going on with me the past year!
I was having issues with my employer, who is the largest medical insurance company in North America and COMPLETE ASSHOLES to work for. Crappy pay, crappy health insurance, mandatory overtime EVERY FUCKING WEEK FOR OVER FOUR YEARS!! and a total lack of interest in the people who bust their asses for them.
So anyways,
I began having serious MS issues early in 2018. I told my bosses who didn't give a rip, and by June of last year, I was done. My neurologist pulled me out of work. I immediately went onto short term disability and hired a lawyer to help me navigate the governmental morass that is applying for Social Security Disability. My employer put me through hell every five weeks to recertify medically for my short term disability. My stupid case manager actually had the balls to tell me "I just don't understand why you were working full time hours and then suddenly you couldn't work. That does not make any sense to me." Bitch, it's because I HAVE MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS. Can you tell I have a lot of anger towards these people?
Anyhow, I spent six months on short term disability at 80% pay. My lawyer told me it would take about two years for me to be approved for Social Security Disability because the government is so far behind with the cases. So I have been hanging in there cos I don't have any other choice. I can't work full time, and as long as you are applying for Social Security Disability, you cannot have any earned income. I guess you're just supposed to starve. My attorney has clients who are living out of their cars cos they have lost their homes, etc. I have a house, a car, and four dogs. My family was absolutely not interested in assisting me in any way. (My mother told me to just go back to work and stop trying to take their money)In this situation, eBay has been very useful. And my ex husband stepped up and has funneled me about $1500.
So on New Years Eve I got a letter from the US government, from the Social Security Department, and I WAS AWARDED MY SSDI! I was flabbergasted, as was my lawyer. I was approved my first time through the system which apparently happens only 8% of the time. I also got a pretty good award, although it doesn't come close to covering my bills, lol. The really bad part, is, I don't get my first check until the end of February. And I don't get any more employer based disability since I now have SSDI approval. I can work part time to a certain income level and not lose my SSDI, but I have a leg issue that must heal before I can work. The biggest problem for me in terms of working is this: I won my SSDI because I can't really work due to what is often called MS Dementia. My MS is very extensive (lots of bad spots in my brain) and it is causing cognitive dysfunction. I am having trouble with my short term memory, comprehending complicated processes (like the sops at work), impulse control, etc. It sucks. I can take care of myself and my dogs as long as I am at home and can stick to my daily routine. I have some difficulty talking on a bad day cos I have trouble finding my words. And I am a big time talker, lol.
Anyhow, part of the reason I never posted anything about this was because my employer was watching me. I didn't dare post about my filing for SSDI etc, for fear that they would fire me and I would lose my short term disability. My lawyer warned me not to put anything in writing anywhere about what we were doing. Not even texting. Yeah, my employer is that big of an asshole.
So this is the first time I have put any of this in any written form. Having a brain that is becoming uncooperative sucks, but I am fighting to keep my house and my car and my dogs. I tried the roommate thing but ended up with a sociopath who abused my dogs and bragged about it. I went to court to get her ass out of my house. I have been selling things on eBay to get cash, and I closed out my last retirement account to pay my mortgage payments. Money is extremely tight but I am hanging in there. What choice do I have? I did get Obamacare for health insurance and I got it for free, so that really helps. I have friends who drive me to my dr appts etc cos they're all out of town and I can't drive far cos of my leg.
And now I'm rambling. Apparently I do that really often now too, lol.
So that is what has been going on with me the past year!
